misskaylajae

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I suppose today felt like the first day back to school from Winter Break, probably because I didn't go yesterday, and Monday was quite uneventful. I'm actually surprised that I got home early, when I even made stops along the way.

I woke up late (8:30) and still tried to make it to school before 10:00, which I did successfully. I got a significant amount of work done and decided to leave a little earlier than I normally do. As I walked out of the lobby and turned the corner to the street, I heard a man say, "Whoa baby, nice legs." Incidentally, I don't think I'll ever wear shorts in public again.

I decided on a whim that I was going to get starbucks at the Santee Trolley Stop, a.k.a Town Center. I'm still pissed that they charged me $2.15 for a chocolate milk, whereas it's normal price is $1.10. It was good regardless, though I think the whipped creme had something to do with that.

As I walked home, I stopped at Michael's and Game Stop for job applications. Neither one was hiring, but both offered the papers to be put onto file, so I took them. I figured I might as well turn them in just so that they have them, and in case they DO decide to hire, they'll have my application ready.

I'm also going to be making a trip to the store for some new headphones as mine are still broken, unfortunately.

We just got a new X-Box 360 for Christmas. My favorite game is Guitar Hero 3, which I can play on Expert. And you know what I hate? After everything that happened today, I just want to sit down, relax, maybe play some Guitar Hero, but no. My brother decides to hide the cord that connects the guitar controller to the actual X-BOX 360. The reason? Beats me. I'll ask him when he gets home. Though I have one hypothesis: He probably doesn't want me beating anymore of his high scores.

I'm waiting until 4:30-5:00 when my friend will be coming over and we will go over to another friend's house and hang out and talk and whatnot.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow night. My friend, (who is exceptionally cute), is in a band and they are playing at the local concert venue. A lot of my other friends will be there, and I'm hoping for a decent night out.

adrenaline rushes& truly feeling alive, now knowing what you thought you remembered back then,the science and history channels, cold summer days,and hot winter nights,exerciseTV on DEMAND, all the wonderful good crap, blinking until my eyes water, reading cookbooks at 4 o'clock a.m., standing up way too fast, never knowing which way "up" is, discussing the universe and physics theories,close your eyes and listen to the waves crash, beautiful beautiful beautiful people, disarming with a smile, carlessness meets carefulness, words spoken soft, whispered, playing piano, listneing to masterpieces, eating 100 celery sticks and then counting slowly to thirty by 1/2's, life and death and everything in between.

"I was screaming, saying something meaningful; for the fear of silence was immensely greater than the fear of saying the wrong thing."-miss kayla jae

If I told you that I didn't remember when this all started, I would be lying blatantly to your face. I know exactly what I'm doing, even if it seems that it's not clarified to me. Once I thought I could control this, that I could beat it, or keep it to a minimum; but I was wrong. It all started way back in my Freshman year of high school. Mommy thought I was going to go far in life, and indeed I was on my way. Daddy kept his distances with the family, but when he felt it was convenient, spared us a few hours on a lonely Saturday afternoon for "bonding time". Every aspect of me was positive and I wasn't planning on changing it. Being a captain of a sports team, having all A's and B's, and being the social butterfly of the school had me in favor of success. I can't however tell you if my downfall was result to my actions. My sinking ship of a life had been underway of reconstruction for quite a while hitting my adolescent point. Whenever I was in a group, I would stand out, radiantly. I would shine brighter than God's sun itself. I started to grow tired of trying so hard in school and extra-curricular activities and I became more introverted and kept to myself. I was still sociable, don't get me wrong. Just things inside my head started to warp and twist themselves around. I had no way of controlling it, and my curiosity was only begging to be fed. I wanted to know how and why everything worked the way it did, and what effects it had on everything else. Things grew even more awkward when my friends kept on their steady Harvard-bound track to millions, while I was wondering, "Why?". I specifically recollect one day in October of 2006. The sun was hot and the plants were all dried out; wild fires were a preeminent threat to the city. The sprinklers were turned on during regular school hours in a feeble attempt to save the wildlife. I was out sick for the last few days, and my friends had taken notice to my absence. Being 14-year-olds the gossip flew out of their mouths like steam from a kettle. The thought of me being the dominant leader of the pack and then avoiding them curdled the blood in their very veins. When I had arrived at school I knew what was said and done. My reputation was shattered, the image of me destroyed; and I had the pieces to pick up. When I walked, I could feel every pair of malicious eyes fixed onto me. I held my breath in the fear I would make one false move and fall into the grave so many people had taken part in digging. I walked on the right side of the sidewalk, regardless that the sprinklers were wetting my shoes. But once I walked past them, a size 8 shoe made it's presence on the ground and quickly vanished into the heat almost as fast as it had appeared. And from that day forward nothing was exactly the same......

I don't know what's going on.
Maybe I'll find out soon? You have
No ideas how much school sucks.
Ohhhh,an hour EVERY MORNING,just
To get there!!!!!!!!
Ohh welll....
Kay well I should be going.
Ahahaha.
Yesterday was pretty fun though.

Today, (September 2nd,2008), I started at my new school.
It's a school where you complete a class as fast as you
can and move onto the next one, so that you can graduate
early,or catch up if you're behind.

I was the most nervous about getting there and back.
But really,it was the adventure I had.

I drove from my house to my grandpa's house in El Cajon
wih my mom, and she went to work with the car. I watched
some TLC and then my grandpa asked me to go to breakfast
with him.

So we drove down to Jack In The Box and we went in and ordered.
I got 3 maccaronni& cheese bites and he, a breakfast jack.
We got cups for water and when we walked over to get it, there
was a prostitute sitting at the nearest table, wearing a see-through
shirt, and talking to herself in spanish. She was clearly on heavy
drugs and knocked her glass of water over. She yelled and cursed
at the spilled water and then took her place at the table again.

We left and I got dropped of in front of the building that I do my
lessons in, (it isn't a school!). I went in and sat there for 45 minutes
before we even did anything, besides take roll.

I took notes, doodled on my page, and just barely stayed awake!

I went outside after class was over and I waited for my mom.
Given she was 40 minutes late, I made observations of this
new city. I watched cop cars patrolling more around here than
anywhere else in San Diego. I saw less cars, and more people
on bikes and on foot as means of transporation. And then I looked
down and I saw a spider.

It was tiny, in fact, I'm surprised I even noticed him.

He moved so fast and sharp but it didn't seem like
he was going anywhere. He wasnt' moving in circles,
or retracing the steps and leaps he already had, but
just kind of stayed in one place. He vanished under a
leaf and then he poked out and went back in super fast.

I think my classmates who were also waiting for their rides
thought I was insane when i slightly laughed at what appeared
to be the sidewalk.

I drove home, dicussing my events of the day with my mom
as we munched down on veggie sticks and talked about
Kelli's new baby Madden. I think I'm going o go visit her
sometime.

But for now, I'm going to listen to this song and just realx......






xoxo
misskaylajae

Nothing too extravagant happened today.
Parkway Plaza, Fashion Valley, Parkway Plaza.
Met up with some cool amigos there.

Drove around for 4 hours running errands
with the mother.

tb ifc a iwhlhswcbs a.
figure THAT one out(;

I'm tired,so i'm checking in for the night.

"Your lips are like porn to my laugh box!"-Spencer
Jesus,that kid thinks I am THE funniest thing!


xoxo
misskaylajae

SO I went to the Thrash and Burn Tour last night and the line up was:

Arsonists Get All the Girls
After the Burial
Abigail Williams
Arsis
Winds of Plague
Misery Signals
Parkway Drive
Darkest Hour

And,it was fun.
I knew tons of people there
and I hung out with them.

Winds of Plague,Parkway Drive,and Darkest Hour
pretty much donimnated,haha.

Nothing else to really say.

xoxo
misskaylajae

I shouldn't be nervous going into this,
but I find myself constantly thinking
about it.

On a better note,The Thrash& Burn Tour is tonight,
(in 3 hours and 34 minutes to be exact)
So yes,I am that excited.
Me, Courtney(my sister), Emelie, and Gabe
are all going, and I'm driving(;

I got out of school early because I had an appointment
with the school that I'm switching to.
SO,today was my last day at West Hills High School.
I'm pretty neutral about this whole situation in
it's entirety,given the circumstances.

Well, I should be off to take my recyclables
in for moneysss(:

xoxo
Miss Kayla Jae

I can't seem to pull slack for anything I do anymore.

And it's not like I've been getting any help,either.


As life hurls its challenges in my way,I try
to overcome them with the most positive
mindset as I can.


And it's never enough.


Losing someone's trust is so much worse
than I could have imagined it would be.


I had everything figured out and my plans were definite,
now everything fell through and I'm left with little,if no
more options to fall back on.


And it's my business,you should know that.

Please let me be who I am with no
penalties...please.


At this point,it's all I'm asking for...

xoxo
misskaylajae

I had to start at West Hills,I'm 99% sure that
tomorrow is actually my last day,and then
I'm going to do Independent Study!

I got into trouble all for running my loud mouth and making
smart ass comments,lol(:

First period: We didn't actually have first period today,so I got my schedule and found my and Corey's firs period class with Courtney and Kari.


Second period: The people look like a damn Hollister magazine! A whole bunch of preppy ass kids who kept pissing me off. And then this kid talked about his damn tires for like 10 minutes. Just frustrating, but the teacher seems pretty badass.


Third period: English,wow,my teacher is like,crazy insane,possibly in a good way,but I'm not exactly sure yet. We have this assignment tonight to write an essay about us.
Mine is going to be spectacular(;

Fourth period: Sucked,I sat and listened to a teacher talk about weight training. She was my aerobics teacher last year,and we didn't get along so hot.


Fifth period: JESUS! I have never heard a teacher say "bullshit" so many times in one hour! This class is a definite A.


Sixth period: My teacher has the most annoying voice,and I can withstand pretty much anything,but no. Not hers. And she loves me already.


Seventh period: I have Penny Mc Dizzle again! Hahah,at least it won't suck. I wrote for my current profession: Professional Badass. Nice,eh? This is probably one of my favorite classes,definitely top 2. I wore the "sex queen" crown all period and drew turkies on the white board.



xoxo
misskaylajae

Wow,this summer was shitty at first.

But as the summer was winding up in it's
final week or so,things made an immense
turn for the better.


My birthday is one to never be forgotten.

W A R P E D T O U R 2 0 0 8

And tonight is my final night of fun.

Heavy Heavy Low Low is playing down
at SOMA and I'm meeting a few friends
down there.


And then I can foresee my night as follows:
-shower.

-get school supplies ready.

-play Brawl on the Wii.

-pick outfit out for tomorrow.

-get an hour of sleep.


And then tomorrow,is school.

I'm glad I'm only going to
West Hills for a week, or so.


And then I'm doing Independent Study
and getting a nice job to acquire an income.


Farewell summer.

Hello life.


xoxo
miss kayla jae